my testimony

Introduction

In this section, Hannah introduces herself and shares her motivation for sharing her story.

• Hannah introduces herself and expresses her desire to share her story to encourage others or bring love to someone.

• She mentions that this is her first YouTube video and she is currently streaming it.

• Hannah talks about growing up in a poor area in Shreveport, Louisiana, where she lived in a small house with two rooms and one bathroom.

Childhood Memories

In this section, Hannah talks about some of the memories from her childhood.

• Hannah describes the area where she grew up as a poor neighborhood with random houses and empty plots.

• She shares that she was homeschooled because of their financial situation.

• Hannah talks about how they had a garden where they got most of their food from.

• She mentions that she taught herself how to read and talk before starting elementary school.

• Hannah shares that her dad had severe anger issues and would punish their dog by chaining him to the back of their truck.

Moving to Texas

In this section, Hannah talks about moving to Plano, Texas when she was six years old.

• Hannah describes how every night before they moved, she would listen to her parents scream at each other until she fell asleep.

• On her sixth birthday weekend, her mom took them away from home after finding out that her dad cheated on her. They stayed with their aunt for six months until the divorce was finalized.

• Because of growing up poor and not having good social skills, Hannah lied a lot in elementary school to fit in with other kids.

Moving to a New School

Hannah talks about moving into a new apartment and starting at a new school. She was excited for a fresh start, but faced challenges with making friends.

Challenging Start

• On her first day of class, Hannah tried to make friends with the girl sitting next to her.

• The girl rejected her because Hannah was poor and dressed like a tomboy.

• Throughout elementary school, Hannah was bullied by this girl and her friends.

• Her sister also experienced bullying due to alopecia.

After School Care

• Due to their mom's work schedule, Hannah and her sister were in after-school care from 6am until 10pm every day.

• During summers, they attended cheap summer programs since their mom couldn't be home to take care of them.

Boys and Girls Club

• On weekends, they would go to the Boys and Girls Club which is an after-school/weekend care center for kids from poor families.

• Most of the kids there were black, while Hannah and her sister were the only white kids. They were often picked on because of their race.

Unfair Treatment at School

Despite being bullied at school, Hannah received unfair treatment from teachers when she reported it.

Bullying Incident

• One time, the bullies dragged Hannah across concrete until she was bleeding and crying.

• When she told the teacher what happened, she got put in timeout instead of the bullies getting punished.

Favoritism

• The main bully's parents helped pay for things at school so she received preferential treatment from teachers.

• Even when Hannah's mom talked to Madison's mom about the bullying incident, nothing changed.

• Hannah was often pity-invited to events with the bullies but still faced bullying.

Family Struggles

Hannah's family faced many struggles during her elementary school years.

Sister's Alopecia

• Hannah's sister had alopecia and was allowed to wear a bandana to cover her head at school.

• Other kids would yank it off and bully her for it.

Home Life

• Hannah and her sister shared a room and their mom was rarely home due to work.

• Her sister took out her anger from being bullied on Hannah.

Coping with Trauma

In this section, the speaker talks about her traumatic experience as a child and how it has affected her life.

Childhood Trauma

• The speaker's father had visiting rights but kidnapped her and her sister to another state.

• The speaker experienced trauma during the three to four months she was away from home.

• The trauma led to PTSD that she still struggles with today.

Brainwashing and Addiction

• The speaker's new stepmom brainwashed her into calling her "mom" and forgetting about her actual mom.

• The speaker's parents were addicted to drugs, which led to neglect of their children.

• The speaker was prescribed ADHD medication at a young age, which led to addiction. Her parents also took the medication for themselves.

Living Conditions

• The house where the speaker lived was in a dangerous neighborhood with gunshots at night and registered pedophiles nearby.

• Food was scarce, and they often ate stale or expired food. Sanitation was poor, with no toilet paper available.

• The living conditions were so bad that the speaker would hide under a table with her sister while their parents were absent.

Childhood Trauma and Misconceptions about Christianity

In this section, the speaker talks about her traumatic childhood experiences and how it shaped her understanding of Christianity.

Abusive Father and Misconceptions about Jesus

• The speaker's father was physically abusive towards her and her sister. He would beat them with a metal part of a belt until they passed out.

• Despite the abuse, the father would read Bible stories to the speaker and her sister, which led to their first encounter with Jesus. However, he also beat them while doing so, leading to misconceptions that Jesus condones violence as punishment for mistakes.

• The speaker clarifies that this is not what being a Christian means.

Learning to Lie and Survive

• The speaker was taught to lie at a young age in order to survive. Her stepmom would beat her for small mistakes such as dropping a plate or not knowing how to do dishes at seven years old.

• The other kids in the family would bully the speaker and tell on her to their parents, resulting in more beatings.

• One time, the kids made the speaker sit crisscrossed against a wall for five hours without moving or risk getting beaten more.

Near Death Experience

• The speaker recalls an incident where she almost got killed by her stepmom who was high on drugs. She managed to escape with the help of her dog Hank.

Overall, this section highlights how childhood trauma can shape one's understanding of religion and spirituality. It also sheds light on how abuse can lead to survival mechanisms such as lying.

Childhood and Family Life

In this section, the speaker talks about their childhood experiences and family life.

Protection from God

• The speaker reflects on their childhood and realizes that even before they became a Christian, God was protecting them.

• They share an incident where their dad pulled out a gun on someone who was trying to have a sexual relationship with their sister.

Custody Battles

• The speaker shares how they were caught in custody battles between their parents.

• They talk about how both parents would put down the other in front of them, making it confusing for them to understand who was right or wrong.

Therapy and Bullying

• The speaker talks about going to therapy at a young age but it didn't help much.

• They share how they were still bullied in school and at home by their sister even after the custody battle ended.

Middle School Experiences

In this section, the speaker talks about their experiences during middle school.

New Stepdad and Moving to a Nicer Area

• The speaker's mom got pregnant with someone she was seeing at work, so they moved to a nicer area.

• However, compared to other kids in school, they were still considered poor.

Theater Kid and Conditional Love

• The speaker joined theater but made friends who also bullied them.

• They learned from home life that love was conditional based on how well they acted or provided something for others.

Bullying Due to Appearance

• The speaker shares how they were bullied due to having glasses, braces, freckles, and poor hygiene.

• They reflect on not being considered attractive during middle school.

Middle School and Church Experience

In this section, the speaker talks about their experience in middle school where they were bullied and had no close friends. They also talk about their experience with a church that did not represent Jesus and was more focused on money and looks.

Bullying in Middle School

• The speaker was bullied a lot in middle school.

• They never had a best friend or close friends during elementary or middle school.

Church Experience

• The speaker started going to church with their family before high school.

• The church they went to did not represent Jesus and was more focused on money, looks, and being a click.

• The speaker was still bullied at church despite it being a place of love for everyone.

Manipulative Churches

• Many churches only care about money, looks, religion, and controlling people through actions rather than grace.

• Manipulative churches teach that you are saved by your actions so they can control you and get money out of you.

Personal Relationship with Jesus

• A personal relationship with Jesus is based on unconditional love, salvation through grace, and having the Holy Spirit come into you.

• Joy is found in God rather than physical things that make you feel good.

The Importance of Unconditional Love in Christianity

In this section, the speaker discusses the importance of unconditional love in Christianity and how many churches fail to teach it.

Conditional vs. Unconditional Love

• Many churches do not teach what a real relationship with Jesus looks like and instead focus on religion.

• Misuse of Christianity by some churches has led to hatred towards Christians and Christianity.

• Jesus loves unconditionally, even when we make mistakes or sin.

• There may be consequences for our actions, but we are still loved unconditionally by Jesus.

Personal Experience

• The speaker's experience at a church in middle school was negative due to the lack of teaching about love and gospel principles.

• Despite being a Satanist, one girl at the church showed kindness to the speaker and called her best friend.

• This girl taught the speaker how to shoplift and had her steal thousands of dollars worth of items.

The Only Unforgivable Sin?

In this section, the speaker discusses what she believes is the only unforgivable sin according to biblical teachings.

Unforgivable Sin

• According to biblical teachings, turning your back on Jesus after knowing him is considered an unforgivable sin.

• However, there is still salvation available for those who commit this sin.

Childhood Trauma and Sexuality Confusion

In this section, the speaker talks about how her childhood trauma affected her need to be a perfect kid to be loved. She also discusses her confusion about her sexuality due to being introduced to sexual things at a young age.

Childhood Trauma

• The speaker felt like she had to be a perfect kid to be loved because of the childhood she had.

• She was scared of telling her family that she was shoplifting because she thought they wouldn't love her anymore.

• After coming clean about shoplifting, the speaker's parents treated her like a disappointment for a long time and grounded her for an entire summer.

Sexuality Confusion

• The speaker was confused about her sexuality due to being introduced to sexual things at a young age.

• She questioned if she liked girls because everyone else was doing it and was confused about sex in general.

• The speaker thought she might be bisexual because she wanted to be loved by everyone.

High School Experience

In this section, the speaker talks about her high school experience and how much pressure she put on herself to maintain straight A's and appear perfect.

High School Pressure

• The speaker was a straight-A student until the end of sophomore year and cared so much about appearing perfect.

• She almost got into gifted classes but didn't make it, which made her feel like a failure.

• The speaker's confusion about her sexuality made her question who she was and what love was.

Betrayal by Friends

In this section, the speaker talks about how her best friend at the time betrayed her trust by telling others that she was questioning her sexuality.

Betrayal

• The speaker's best friend at the time told others that she was questioning her sexuality, which made her feel hurt and confused.

• The speaker warned her friend that she didn't think the other people were good or kind but her friend continued to get closer to them.

• Her friend's new friends told her that the speaker had a crush on her, even though she wasn't sure if she was gay or not.

Childhood Experiences

The speaker talks about her childhood experiences with friends and family, including being bullied by her sister and physically abused by her mother. She also discusses her first experience with a crush and how it affected her friendships.

Bullying and Betrayal

• Speaker's friends would bully or betray her.

• Speaker's sister bullied her at home.

• Speaker's mother was physically abusive towards her.

Confusing Relationship with Mother

• Speaker thought physical abuse from parents was normal.

• Speaker's mother acted bipolar, making the relationship confusing for the speaker.

First Crush Experience

• Speaker had a crush on a boy in high school but cancelled their date due to nervousness.

• Friends turned against the speaker because the boy liked her instead of them.

High School Experiences

The speaker discusses being bullied in high school for being talkative and teacher's pet. She also talks about questioning her sexuality and wanting to fit in with others who were coming out as bisexual.

High School Bullying

• Speaker was bullied in high school for being talkative and teacher's pet.

• Friends turned against the speaker because of a boy they both liked.

Questioning Sexuality

• Speaker questioned their sexuality after becoming friends with someone who identified as gay.

• [](no timestamp provided) Wanted to fit in with others who were coming out as bisexual.

Discovering Sexuality

In this section, the speaker talks about their journey of discovering their sexuality and how they identified as pansexual at one point.

Confusion About Sexual Identity

• The speaker wanted to be loved by everyone and identified as pansexual.

• They questioned whether they wanted to be a guy and dated women, men, and trans people.

• The speaker became hyper-feminine and wore thigh highs, short skirts, oversized sweaters, choker necklaces, heavy winged eyeliner, cat ear backpacks with anime pens on them.

Friendzoning Best Friend

In this section, the speaker talks about how their best friend had a crush on them but they didn't want to lose her as a friend so they started becoming more masculine.

Becoming More Masculine

• The speaker's best friend had a crush on them but wanted someone more masculine.

• The speaker started dressing more masculine to keep her friend from not liking them anymore.

• During this time period of confusion about sexual identity and dressing more masculine the speaker watched a lot of anime.

Struggles with Depression

In this section, the speaker talks about struggling with depression during high school which led to failing grades and being punished by their mother.

Struggling with Depression

• The speaker struggled with depression during high school which led to failing grades.

• The speaker's mother punished them by taking away their phone, friends, and money they earned from work.

• The speaker started working a lot to avoid being at home and watched a lot of anime during this time.

Hyper-Feminine Style

In this section, the speaker talks about how they became hyper-feminine during high school as a way to cope with their struggles.

Coping Mechanism

• The speaker became hyper-feminine during high school as a coping mechanism for their struggles.

• They wore thigh highs, short skirts, oversized sweaters, choker necklaces, heavy winged eyeliner, cat ear backpacks with anime pens on them.

• The speaker also wore fishnets under baggy jeans with holes in them and t-shirts/crop tops that weren't cropped enough to get dress coded but still looked cute.

The Experience of Sexual Harassment and Assault

In this transcript, the speaker talks about her experience with sexual harassment and assault. She shares how she was harassed by a group of boys in school, how she learned that guys only wanted to date her if they could have sex with her, and how she was sexually assaulted at 17 years old.

Harassment in School

• A group of boys would follow the speaker around and make inappropriate comments about her body.

• They would also bump into her and laugh.

• The speaker wore a v-neck shirt to class one day, and the boys whispered that they could see her cleavage.

• The boys treated the speaker as a joke and never showed genuine interest in dating or getting to know her.

Learning About Attention

• The speaker realized that guys only paid attention to her when they were sexually attracted to her.

• She also learned from her sister's experience that guys can take advantage of girls.

Sexual Assault at 17 Years Old

• The speaker downloaded Tinder at 17 years old and met up with a man who was 24 years old.

• They went on a date, and he sexually assaulted the speaker in his car.

• When the speaker returned home, her mother assumed she had sex with him and punished her by making her sleep outside without blankets or warm clothes.

• Her mother blamed the speaker for what happened and called her names.

The Impact of Trauma on My Life

In this section, the speaker talks about how a traumatic experience affected her relationship with her mother and led to changes in her personality and behavior.

Traumatic Experience and Its Aftermath

• The speaker's first sexual experience was non-consensual, which left her feeling hurt and broken.

• Her mother did not talk to her after the incident, which made the situation worse.

• A woman took the speaker to get checked for STDs and gave her a Bible, which helped her feel like God was there for her.

• The speaker became very quiet and stopped trusting people after the incident. She also started skipping class, smoking weed, drinking alcohol, and going to parties with older friends.

Skateboarding Arc

• The speaker met Elijah during freshman year of college who taught her how to skateboard. She started skating almost every day and gained a new personality.

• During this time, she drank a lot of alcohol for liquid courage while learning how to drop in at the skate park. She also cut bangs and dyed hair dark blue.

• She dated someone during freshman year but it didn't last long. They had a fling later on during winter break.

Conclusion

The traumatic experience had a significant impact on the speaker's life as she struggled with trust issues, substance abuse, and changes in personality. However, skateboarding provided an outlet for self-expression that helped shape who she is today.

Learning from Past Relationships

In this section, the speaker talks about her past relationships and how they have impacted her life.

First Relationship

• The speaker had a relationship with someone who she gave her first time to.

• It was an awkward experience, but they both decided to continue the relationship.

• However, he ghosted her after going back to college, even though she had told him that her first time was taken from her.

• This experience taught the speaker what boys and men were like.

Alcoholism and Risky Behavior

• After the breakup, the speaker became an alcoholic and engaged in risky behavior.

• She put herself in situations where men could have easily taken advantage of her.

• However, she was miraculously saved from being taken advantage of multiple times.

• The speaker later realized that God was trying to protect her during this time.

Misinterpreting Friendship

• The speaker met Alex through Elijah and they flirted but nothing ever happened between them.

• They became close friends and talked every night on the phone.

• The speaker misinterpreted their friendship as romantic feelings and they tried dating for a week but it didn't work out because Alex was Christian and didn't want to engage in sexual activities.

Hannah's Life Story

In this section, Hannah talks about her life experiences and how they have affected her.

Early Life

• Hannah had a crush on Alex but was hurt when he didn't want to have a sexual relationship with her.

• She had unhealthy friendships and situationships that led to drama and pain.

• Hannah encountered real friendship with Alex, but she ran away from it because she didn't know how to take it.

Home Life

• Hannah's home life was toxic, and she didn't trust anyone.

• Her mom would run away in the middle of the night, and her stepdad would fight with her mom.

• Hannah had to pay rent to live at home if she didn't have straight A's in college. Her mom also took her card from her.

Pandemic

• During the pandemic, Hannah got depressed and developed an eating disorder.

• She would skateboard all day until 10 p.m. because it was the only thing that made her happy.

Eating Disorder and Family Issues

In this section, the speaker talks about her experience with an eating disorder and how her family contributed to it. She also shares how she was kicked out of her house at 18 and sent to live with her aunt in Louisiana.

Experience with Eating Disorder

• The speaker had a very low body fat percentage due to not eating much.

• She developed an eating disorder because boys started noticing her more when she was skinny.

• Her parents perpetuated the issue by pointing out weight gain in her sister and suggesting healthier foods only for weight reasons.

• The speaker's parents enforced strict rules around finishing food on plates and not being allowed to eat after 9 pm.

Kicked Out of House

• The speaker snuck out one night to see a boy but got caught by her mom.

• Her mom didn't know what to do with her, so she got kicked out of the house at 18 and sent to live with her aunt in Louisiana.

Living with Aunt

• The speaker became a full-time live-in nanny for her cousin Evan, waking up early every day until they fell asleep at night.

• She was paid $8/hour but had to pay rent, leaving little money left over.

• Her aunt promised to save the rent money for college but later denied ever saying that.

• The speaker felt manipulated by her family into thinking she was selfish and ungrateful.

Family First Mentality

In this section, the speaker talks about her family's "blood first" mentality and how it affected her behavior.

Blood First Mentality

• The speaker's family had a "blood first" mentality where family came before everything else, including God.

• This meant that the speaker was expected to drop everything and help a family member in need, even if it was inconvenient for her.

• The speaker started posting on TikTok as a way to cope with depression and isolation. She deleted all of her social media accounts and didn't talk to anyone for almost a year.

Struggling with an Eating Disorder

In this section, the speaker discusses her struggles with an eating disorder during the time she was isolated from others.

Eating Disorder

• During the time she isolated herself, the speaker struggled with an eating disorder. She would eat only one meal a day consisting of vegetables and chicken.

• Some nights, she would eat until it hurt because her body was so hungry. Other times, she would starve herself for a week.

• The speaker also worked out excessively during this time. She did not do weight lifting but instead focused on hip workouts and ab workouts by Chloe Ting.

• Her eating disorder got so bad that her hair started falling out and she stopped having periods.

Obsession with Looks

In this section, the speaker talks about how her obsession with looks became her reason for living during this period of isolation.

Obsession with Looks

• The speaker's reason for living during this time was to find a boyfriend and look good. She believed that if she looked pretty, she would get more attention and followers on TikTok.

• Her first few TikToks blew up because of her looks, which reinforced her belief that looks were important.

• The speaker put a lot of value in her looks at this time in her life.

Finding Confidence on TikTok

In this section, the speaker talks about how she found confidence through posting on TikTok.

Finding Confidence

• The speaker made her first TikTok video and it got a million views. This gave her enough confidence to keep posting on the platform.

• Her first few videos blew up because of her looks, but eventually, she started making content that was more meaningful to her.

• Posting on TikTok helped the speaker gain confidence and overcome some of the insecurities she had about herself.

Becoming an Influencer

In this section, the speaker talks about how she became an influencer on TikTok and the steps she took to achieve success.

Starting Out as an Influencer

• The speaker discovered that being an influencer was a career path after watching YouTube videos.

• She learned that posting consistently was the most important thing for success.

• For six months, she posted twice a day almost every day to build her following.

Early Success and Learning Her Worth

• After six consistent months of posting, the speaker gained almost 100k followers on TikTok.

• Brands started reaching out to her to send free products and pay her for content creation.

• The speaker acknowledges that the amount she was paid at first was not fair compared to what it should have been.

Spiritual Growth and Self-Care

• During this time in her life, the speaker began practicing witchcraft, meditation, tarot cards, crystals, working out daily, eating healthy, taking vitamins, stretching daily and going into nature every day.

• She also went to therapy again and read self-help books.

• The speaker stopped smoking and drinking unless it was a special occasion because she wanted to be healthier.

Experiencing Spiritual Phenomena

• The speaker experienced spiritual phenomena such as accurate tarot card readings and sleep paralysis where she would wake up in her dream unable to move or feel chained down.

Conclusion

In this section, the speaker concludes her story and reflects on her journey.

Final Thoughts

• The speaker reflects on how she tried to fix herself during this time in her life.

• She acknowledges that she still has a lot of work to do but is grateful for the progress she has made.

• The speaker encourages others to take care of themselves and seek help when needed.

The Spiritual World and Witchcraft

In this section, the speaker talks about her experiences with witchcraft and how it relates to Christianity. She also discusses the existence of other powers in the spiritual world.

Witchcraft and Christianity

• The speaker got into "demonic stuff" while seeking healing.

• The Bible acknowledges the existence of other powers in the spiritual world.

• False versions of love and light can pose as gods and goddesses.

• Witchcraft, demonic things, and false gods/goddesses are real but are knockoffs of the real deal.

• Miracles from other religions are real but not as powerful as those from God.

Spiritual Warfare

• There is a spiritual world where there is war going on for your soul.

• You can make spiritual contracts without knowing it.

Finding Love in God

In this section, the speaker talks about meeting Alex and how he was running away from God at that time.

Meeting Alex

• Alex was running away from God when they met.

• Satan comes to kill, steal, and destroy by speaking lies that twist the truth.

• Turning your face to Jesus is all it takes to find love in God.

Reconnecting with Alex

• They reconnected after talking for hours on the phone one night.

• She texted him when she was thinking of him during a visit to Texas.

• She would drive five hours to Texas every weekend to visit friends and skate.

• She visited Alex during one of her trips to Texas.

Loneliness

• The speaker felt lonely and wanted someone to talk to.

Finding Love and Friendship

Hannah talks about her past relationship with Alex, how they started dating, and eventually became best friends. She also shares how she felt loved for the first time in her life during a hug from Alex.

Relationship with Alex

• Hannah opened up to Alex about her past while sitting on the ledge of a parking garage.

• After listening to Hannah, Alex gave her a big hug which made her feel loved for the first time in her life.

• Hannah mistook this love as romantic feelings and started dating Alex for three months.

• They broke up but remained best friends without any romantic feelings.

Learning About God Through Alex

• While dating Alex, Hannah learned about God through him even though he was running from Jesus.

• She saw the love of God through him even when he was not actively seeking it.

Struggling with Substance Abuse

Hannah talks about how she struggled with substance abuse after trying mushrooms on Fourth of July two years ago.

Trying Mushrooms

• On Fourth of July two years ago, Hannah tried mushrooms and felt like trees were speaking to her.

• She didn't want to come down from the high and drank half a bottle of Tito's vodka straight from the bottle.

Struggling with Substance Abuse

• This incident made Hannah realize that she was still struggling with substance abuse despite thinking that she had fixed herself.

• She didn't want to go back to real life and was scared of it.

Hitting Rock Bottom

In this section, the speaker describes hitting rock bottom and realizing that despite having a seemingly good life, she was still broken inside.

Realizing How Broken She Was

• After taking drugs and experiencing a panic attack, the speaker realized how broken she was.

• Despite trying to heal herself through therapy, meditation, and spirituality, the speaker still felt empty inside.

• The speaker hit rock bottom and didn't know what else to do.

Finding Salvation

• The speaker pointed at a cross necklace worn by her boyfriend and said "I need that."

• Her boyfriend played the end of a sermon for her to pray the Prayer of Salvation.

• The speaker felt like something filled her up after praying and described it as feeling like she had a whole heart again.

Seeing Things Differently

• After finding salvation, the speaker saw things differently and realized how unhealthy her family was.

• Her family did not react positively to her newfound faith.

Understanding Free Will

In this section, the speaker discusses the concept of free will and how it relates to God's love for humanity.

The Importance of Free Will

• Free will allows us to make choices and experience consequences.

• Love cannot exist without free will.

• Satan spreads lies and confusion in a fallen world, leading people to make bad decisions that hurt others.

God's Role in Free Will

• God wants to help but places rules on himself to allow free will to exist.

• God intervenes at times but still allows people to make their own choices.

• Coming to Christ can bring healing and positive change.

Family Reaction

• The speaker's family was unhappy with her decision to become Christian.

• Her aunt screamed at her about being a terrible Christian after she declined a family vacation due to prayerful discernment.

Leaving Home and Starting Twitch Streaming

In this section, the speaker talks about leaving her aunt's house and moving to Texas. She also discusses how she started Twitch streaming and how it was difficult for her at first.

Moving to Texas

• The speaker left her aunt's house and moved to Texas.

• Her aunt threatened to call the cops on her and texted her ex-boyfriend about how she was lying and manipulating him.

• The speaker mentions that Alex, her ex-boyfriend, is great with kids.

Starting Twitch Streaming

• The speaker started Twitch streaming a little over a year ago in September 2022.

• At first, she played Minecraft because it was the only game she could run on her MacBook mini.

• She was not talkative at first and didn't know how to talk to the camera.

• The community grew to around 30 consistent people over time.

Breakup with Eric and Dating for Marriage

In this section, the speaker talks about breaking up with Eric and why she is not looking for a relationship right now.

Breakup with Eric

• The speaker broke up with Eric around the time she started Twitch streaming because it wasn't healthy for them.

• They decided to become good friends instead of being in a romantic relationship.

Dating for Marriage

• The speaker is not looking for a relationship right now because she doesn't think she's ready to be a wife yet.

• She dates for marriage and wants to be in a place where she can be good for her partner before dating again.

• When the time comes, she believes it will be easy to know if it's the right time to date.

Growth on Social Media

In this section, the speaker talks about their growth on various social media platforms and how they have been provided for during times of financial stress.

Social Media Growth

• The speaker went from 30k to 115k followers on Instagram in two and a half months.

• They also saw an increase in consistent viewers on Twitch, going from 30 to 100 viewers, sometimes even reaching 200.

• On TikTok, the speaker's account grew from 200k to over 300k followers. Another account also saw an increase from 150k to 250k followers.

Trusting in God

• Despite financial stress and worry, the speaker has been provided for and believes that God is good.

• The speaker acknowledges that they will make mistakes and struggle but hopes that their journey can bring hope to others who may be going through similar struggles.

• The audience is reminded that they are not alone and are loved by God. The speaker encourages them to watch their journey as proof that if they can do it, anyone can.

Conclusion

In this section, the speaker concludes their talk by thanking the audience for listening and sharing their story.

Gratitude

• The speaker thanks the audience for joining them despite going over time and making plans with others. They express gratitude for being able to share what was on their heart.

• Although emotional at times, the speaker emphasizes that everything shared was true and part of their testimony/story/life.

• The speaker hopes that their journey can inspire others and invites them to join them on the next part of it.